Super!

Today is a lazy day. I got up and it was snowing like CRAZY! I ate a donut, and watched some television. Then I went and got all pretty for no reason, and called Mel to see if she could come over. She couldn't.

Matthew went over to a friends house, so I'm just at home watching 27 Dresses and chilling.

(:

Amor, Mackenzie

"I've had the best day with you, today."

Did you see those girls? Weird...

These last few days have been pretty good.

I went to Olivia's on Friday night for her birthday, and it was alot of fun. It was me, Olivia, Amanda, her friend Sierra, her sister Bekah, and her cousin Ashley. We all got along very well. It was great.

We all went to Skate City... and everyone skated except for me and Amanda. We just don't skate. So we just chilled and talked for like THREE hours. It was great. I talked about Jacob alot, and she said that he's a great guy, but kindof weird. That's what I love about him though. :P

But, Amanda's really great. Even though we've had our ups and downs, and I've pretty much hated her guts at times, she's a really good friend. :)

After Skate City we went back to Olivia's house. We ate pizza rolls because we were STARVING, and she opened her presents. Then we ate cupcakes and Olivia ate her whole cupcake in one bite. It was hilarious.

Then we played truth or dare. And it was alot of fun. I had to eat an armpit pb&j. I won't get into it, because it was really gross. YUCKY! D:

Then we played telephone. and it was HILARIOUS. Sierra said "Teddygrahm Pez" and by the time it got to the end it was turned into "Tittie Cream Fucks." WTF?!

Then we played this skittle game, and then this makeup game.

Then we got on the computer, and Sierra was reading these emails. Appearently her mom and stepmom have been talking about her behind her back, and saying all this crap. Like how she's messed up and needs professional help... and all this other stuff. It was horrible, she was crying anf it made me really sad. Sometimes, I just hate people.

Then we watched wall-e., I love that movie. We stayed up til about 6am. HAHA.

When we woke back up (around 9) we ate chips and cleaned up. We started watching Step Brothers, and then my dad came to pick me up.

It was alot of fun. :)

I've just been chilling with my family these past two days, and it's nice. I love my family.

I need to chill with Mel SOOOOOON!

I miss her SO much! D:

AND I MISS JACOB LIKE CRAZY. (He can't go to Mr. Biggs D:)

I almost wish it was school again just so I could see him, but it's not.

But I'm not ready to go back.

I just want to see my Jacob. :P

Amor, Mackenzie

"Because without you I can't breathe."

...

Today is a boring day. I've been just chilling and watching movies alllllll day long. :)

I need to shower too.
But I'm cold and don't feel like moving.

"It's a long drive back to Vegas skies."

It's going to suck hard...That's what she said.

I am sitting on my couch with my pretty pink laptop while my little brother plays his new Iron Man Wii game. Pretty boring.

I'm still upset about Monday, it was pretty horrible. But you know what? I'll move on. From that night, and from them. I need to have honest, respectful friends. Not ones who lie to get what they want, break the law, and try to get me to go along with it. I've decided that those aren't the kindof friends I want.

And I still have Mel. Always. She's without a doubt THE greatest friend ever. I don't know what I would do with out her. Die, probably. Or at least suffer from severe depression.

Along with Mel I still have Marissa, Seth, Olivia, Ian, Alyssa, Eyvone, and Jacob.

Ahh, Jacob. I miss him so much it's INSANE! I never thought it was possible to miss someone this much. I feel pretty pathetic, to be honest. But, whatever. He just has that effect on me.

Tonight we're having cheeseburgers and curly fries. It sounds so yummy. I can't wait.

I drove to wal-mart today, it was great. I had to help my dad to all the grocery shopping. He bought me a loaf of raisin bread because that sounded REALLY good, so I was eating it and it was good. haha. Me and my random cravings...

Olivia's party on Friday. I'm excited! :)

Amor, Mackenzie

"And I can't think of anybody else that I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you."

D:

It's sad when people you thought were your best friends hurt you, betray you, and lie to you. It's probably the worst feeling in the world.

I wish that last night had gone better. I wish I would've actually had fun. I deserved it, but thanks to you I didn't.

I guess I was wrong about you. I thought you were my best friend. I trusted you with EVERYTHING. I never thought you would lie to me. Thanks for showing your true colors.

I hope you feel good about choosing a stupid band guy over me, and leaving me alone, crying in the cold for almost an hour.
I'm glad you got your autograph.

Amor, Mackenzie

"Just remember we're best friends for never."

DoTesticles

I'm in Denver right now. My family is watching X2, and I don't like it.

Today I woke up and went down to the lobby and bought a chocolate muffin and Vitamin Water...and then got all perty. Then we went to this really yummy deli and had lunch. Then we went to a awesme bowling alley and bowled for a LONG time, it was fun.

After we were done bowling we went to Old Navy and I looked at dresses and skirts, only nothing was good. Then we went and got donuts and then went back to the hotel.

We watched Twilight as we ate our donuts. It was AMAZING. I love that movie. Then we went and got pizza, came back and ate it. Played a game and my mom got to draw on my face (see picture), and then we went swimming for a LONG time!

It was alot of fun.

I'm going to The Academy Is... with Mikayla on Monday. I'm SUPER excited. It should be alot of fun!

:)

Amor, Mackenzie

"It's amazing what you can hide, just by putting on a smile."

My mom keeps sreaming at the cat to get a job

There are some people in this world who will stop at nothing to make sure you are unhappy. They hate to see you happy. I'm not sure why, but it makes me mad. Why can't you just accept that he makes me happier than anything? I adore him. Just accept that, and get over it.

Today was pretty good. I just hung out in American Sociey... we drew pictures. It was fun. Then we had a sub in Freshman Seminar, and we watched How to Eat Fried Worms. It made me laugh alot. Then during advisory, I went to Mrs. McDonald, and heard all about the New York trip. I'm SUPER excited for it, you have no idea! And Mikayla, Jacob, and Eyvonne are probably all going. :D

Then in English, we had a sub and we took a test. It was stupid. Then at lunch I sat with Mel and Jordan, it was pretty fun actually. :) Then I went to Healh, and it went by SUPER fast for some reason. Hmm.

Then I had to wait for over ONE HOUR for Taylor to get done with Chem. It was super dumb. I was angry.

I'm going to the gym with dad tonight. I hope I don't get all sick like I have been whenever I work out. It's super scary.

Tomorrow is the last day of school before break... I'm excited! AND it's a B Day, so I see my lovely Jacob alot... I still have to ask him if he wants to go to Mr. Biggs with me, Mel, and Nathan over break. I hope he says yes. :)

Amor, Mackenzie

"Tell me you want to live life like I do"

I'm a mean person, huh?

So today was okay. I performed in Theater and it went awesome! I was very good, if I do say so myself. I loved it! Jacob ignored me and I thought he was mad at me, but I didn't have time to talk to him during Theater so I had to wait til Bio.

Spanish was lame. The guy who sits next to me was going on and on about my "Rockstar Boyfriend", and I was like "whaaaa?". Appearently he saw me at The Cab show and thought Marshall was my boyfriend. I was like "No." But he didn't beleive me. Whatever.

I had a super hard test in Geometry, and I thought I was going to DIE.

Then it was Bio, and I was super nervous, because I thought Jacob was mad at me. I didn't have time to talk to him at the start of class so I had to wait for us to have a break. When we got up to do our lab, I went over to him. He was like "Mackenzie." all serious. I was scared. I hugged him and he held me tight. I was like, "Are you mad at me?" he was like "Why would I be mad at you?", I was like "I dunno. You just seemed like it in Theater." he was like "Sorry I'm such a mean person!" I was like "I never said you were mean!"then he hugged me. We're fine. :)

Now I'm at home watching American Idol, and Adam is beautiful!

Amor, Mackenzie

"I've painted these walls a million times."

Are you feeling better?

This morning I was in a horrible mood. I was sad and upset. I was mad and hurt. I was trying my best not to break down in tears. It seemed like everything was going wrong and I didn't know how to fix everything.

I was in Theater, and I wasn't enjoying myself. Which isn't good because I should ALWAYS enjoy myself in theater. But today I wasn't. I talked to Eyvonne, and it made me feel better. I think I've over looked how great of a friend she is. She's really wonderful. :)

Then Jacob and I started talking, and it made me feel better, then he started being mean and it made me sad. But he was kidding. So it's okay.

Then I had to perform, and I really didn't want to. I felt like I wasn't giving my all in my acting, and it made me feel really sad. But, I did the best I could.

Then I went to Spanish, and the kid who sits next to me smells really bad and it made me really sick. I couldn't wait to get out of there.

Then it was Geometry. It was okay. I don't like the whole math part, but Justin always makes me laugh. :)

Lunch was nice too. I have it with Mikayla. She's my best friend in the world. I love her to death. We talked about alot. Mostly about TAI... (I hope I can see them on Monday!! :D)

Then it was Biology. Jacob gave me a HUGE hug, and it just made my day. We talked about alot, and he told me how he always wants me to be happy. He's really amazing.

Now I'm home, drinking more chocolate milk, and my head is throbbing. I'll be okay though. The headache will go away, I just hope that everything else goes away too...

Amor, Mackenzie

"Always going to be an uphill battle, sometimes you're going to have to lose."

And you'll fall into me

Last night was horrible. All these fights started with everybody and it was horrible. My dad stormed out of the house, Taylor went downstairs and I went outside. I was just walking around in blue sweats, my Joker shirt, red flats, a red hoodie, a blue scarf, and a poofy green coat. I looked HOT. :P
Then I got too cold so I went back home and drank chocolate milk.
It's horrible.
I want things to be good again.
But I don't think it ever will be.
D:

Today I cleaned my whole room, now it's all clean. Oh my, it needed to be cleaned SO badly, it was horrible. Now I can actually see my floor.

School tomorrow. Jacob. :)

Amor, Mackenzie

"I know it seems like forever, but do me this favor please."

Let's take a picture with the big ball!

I've had a good few days. Yesterday I went over to Mel's to spend the night. I got there and we watched

"City of Ember", it was pretty good, I liked it. Then Mel, Alyssa, and I started watching "St. Elmo's Fire" but I fell asleep in the first ten or so minutes. I was tired.

When we woke up we made dutchboy pancakes, they were yummy! Then we showered and got super pretty and walked over to my house. Then Taylor, Mel, and I went to Taco Bell and ate yummy food. Then we went to Wal-Mart and looked around. Then we went to McDonald's and got ice cream! Then we came home.

It was alot of fun!

I love Taylor and Mel with my whole heart. They are such amazing people and I am so lucky to know them. :)

My mom's gone. She went up to Denver for a few days. I miss her terribly. I love my mom so much.


Amor, Mackenzie

"I can't breathe without you."

Sometimes, even I don't make any sense.

Life. It’s a simple four letter word, but I don’t think any one can really define it. The dictionary says “the quality that distinguishes a vital and functional being from a dead body.” What does that even mean? Sure, we’re alive, we’re not dead. But what is LIFE? Is it just the state of living? Or is it more? I don’t think we’ll ever know.

But what I DO know is that while we are in this thing called life, we might as well make the best of it. Go out there and take risks, have your heart broken, act crazy, be happy, be ALIVE.

It might not always work out how we want it to, we might get hurt along the way, but really, who cares if we make mistakes? Who cares if we make complete fools of ourseleves? Who is anybody to judge? You can’t fly without taking that first jump. And there is no way you can’t live without dreaming. And you honestly can’t become who you are meant to be, without letting go of everything you aren’t and weren’t meant to be.

Everyone, EVERYONE can be a star, everyone can shine, and everyone can achieve everything they want.

I've had a bad morning. I feel down sometimes. I always want to do and be more. I never seem to be fully satisfied. I ask myself multiple times a day what I’ve done wrong. "I guess sometimes not being a success story can make you feel like a flat out failure.", Alex Deleon said it best. The truth is, this a hard life but it is also a beautiful one, everytime I start to feel down, I try to remember that.

This probably doesn’t make any sense. It’s me rambling. Is it about one thing? Not really. Sorry if this doesn’t make sense at all, but some things in this world don’t need to make sense. You just have to believe. In me, in the people around you, in yourself.

Amor, Mackenzie

“But who could ever love me? I am out of my mind, throwing a line out to sea to see if I can catch a dream”

What are you doing here?

Today was good.

I had Theater, finally. It was my only time this week and I needed it SO bad. Theater is my way to release all my frustration and anger. It's a way to let loose and relax. It's a way for me to be, well, me. For some people it's music, for some it's writing, for me it's Theater. I love it with my whole heart.

Along with Theater, I got to see Jacob. :D
It was lovely.

Then I went to Spanish after Theater was over, and it was boring. Then I went to Geometry, and me and Justin made a poster.

Then it was Bio time. And I got to see Jacob again. :D

His hugs make me happier than anything.

I adore him.

I got a smoothie from Froots and it was yummy!

Gym with my padre tonight, and that's it.

I think my parents are going out of town tomorrow night, so it'll be just me and Taylor. How fun!

Well, that's all.

Amor, Mackenzie

"Look into my eyes and whisper something fragile"

Well, yeah, but in a completely different way.

Today, I went to school at noon. I walked in there with a Red Bull smoothie, and ran into Jacob. That was a great way to start out my school day. He looked wonderful today.

Then I had to chill in the Commons until the bell rang, so I saw Taylor, then went and chilled with Mikayla for a while.

Then I went to English, and it was boring.
Then I went to Health, and I drew a pretty picture. :)

Then I had to wait around for Taylor to finish her Chem, and it took forever. It was boring, but Taylor and Tyler made me laugh alot. :)


I might get to have Panara tonight, which makes me super happy. I love that place.

Amor, Mackenzie

"The lights on the street, they set our stage."

He's hiding under the covers.

Well, it's 9:30, and I am sitting at home watching Punk'd, drinking tea, and I don't have to go to school for about 2 1/2 hours. :D

Then I have to sit through an hour of English and an hour of Health.
Then I have to wait for Taylor to be done with Chem.
Then I can go home!


Well, last night I had a horrible dream. In it, my mom died and we were going through all her stuff and deciding what we want to keep and get rid of. It was horribly sad, and I woke up crying.
I love my mom dearly. <3>

Well, I'm going to go. I still have to do my hair all pretty. :)

Amor, Mackenzie

"Just remember to smile, smile, smile."

I am the master of turtles

Today was super lame. We had CSAPS, and they were long and boring. I hate them. Thank God I'm done for the year.

Then I went to Geometry, and it was lame. I got my C up to a B though! So, that's good. :D

Then I went to Bio, and Jacob wasn't there, so I was super sad. I worked with Olivia though! I love her so much! She's probably one of my best friends right now.

I get to go in late tomorrow, so I'm happy with that. I will only have two hours of school. WOO!

Well, that's all.


Amor, Mackenzie

"There's a girl inside tonight because she's got nowhere to go"

What, and let you fall?

Today was boring. I went to American Society and listened to Mr. Whittier lecture us on boring stuff that I don't really care about.

Then I went to Freshman Seminar, and made "Inner Strength Baloons" and it was stupid, and I started to feel sick.
Then I went to English, and it was boring. Lunch was lame too. Then I saw Jacob on my way back to class, and it made my day a little better. Then I went to Health after English was over, and it was really stupid.

When I got home I ate a pancake and then went to Curves to work out. Then mom picked me up and I got a Rasberry Limeade.

I got in trouble for my phone bill, but it's all good now.
:)

So far, today's been pretty suckish.

CSAPS tomorrow. Ew. Then Geometry, and Bio. The only good thing is Jacob's in my Bio class. He makes me smile REAL big.
:D

Amor, Mackenzie

"You've got a smile that could light up this whole town"

3 lives down.

I don't have much to say.

I'm in a pretty good mood today.

Taylor got in trouble again though, and that's never really good. But, it seems fine now. I might have to start taking the bus though. Ew.

I wrote a poem for english, and I think it's very good. So, I'm going to post it here. Any suggestions/comments are more than welcome. :)

Love is a snowflake,

Falling from the winter sky.

It lays softy on the ground,

Turning it a beautiful white.

It's different from the others,

Not one is like the rest.

That's what makes it so incredible,

So pure and quite perfect.

It can fall anywhere,

At anyplace, at any time.

It might take you by suprise,

This lovely, perfect white.

:)

Anyways, tomorrow I am going to see Shopaholic with my mom, and hopefully Mel.

I am NOT looking forward to next week. I'll only have Theater once, so that means I won't see Jacob alot. D:

Sad day.

Batman is on my television again, but once again it's not Heath Ledger, so I don't really care.

Amor, Mackenzie.

"If anyone can make me fall in love, you can."

I know it's kindof silly, but this flower will never die

So much for blogging everyday. Oh well.

Well, life's been running smoothly for me. I've been a super good mood.

I made it into One Act Play, which is pretty much everything I could ask for at the moment. I auditioned, and even though I forgot my last few lines, I made it. I am so very happy. I will be in a class with Mikayla and Jacob next year, which makes it even better.

I also quit track, which has made me a bit happier. I didn't enjoy it. So, now that's over with. :)

Jacob is amazing. I enjoy him.

Well, this weekend I am going to get Red Robin and see Confessions of a Shopaholic with my mother, and mel maybe. :)

That's all. It's been a good few days.

Amor, Mackenzie

PS: I just bought the new School Boy Humor CD, and it's very good. BUY IT!

"It's good, good to me meet you, after all we have been through"