Sell her kisses for change?!

I haven't blogged for a while. I've been at a loss for words, and I'm not even sure why. It seems like everything is totally out of my control, and I don't know why. Nothing is really going how I want it to, maybe it's for the best though.

I wish I wasn't me. That sounds bad. I like myself. I do... but it's just... I don't know.
I wish I wasn't so scared. I'm terrified of getting rejected. That's why I haven't asked him to do anything with me yet. I'm scared he'll say no. He said he liked me, yeah... but that was a long time ago, and he hasn't said anything else, and I'm scared he doesn't like me anymore.
Why would he still like me anyways? I'm not that great. he could do SO much better than me. I'm just... me. And, I'm starting to feel like that's not good enough.
I'm sick of feeling like that, like I'm never going to be good enough for anybody.

Gahh, I'm okay.
I'm in a good mood today.
Skipping school is fun.

Tomorrow, I'll see him... and maybe, maybe if I am brave enough, I'll ask him to hang out.
I'll probably chicken out.
Again.

Amor, Mackenzie

"If I can't have you, I don't want anyone."